So, I just came back from my exams…
Two hours and 40 minutes of just sitting on my butt while staring down at my papers clueless.
There were so many questions I missed. And the ones that I didn’t miss, I had to guess the answers.
I honestly don’t think I have ever done so bad on an exam before. I don’t even know how this happened. I revised for weeks. I took notes. I sent in the homework. But for what? I pretty much failed the exam. Embarrassingly failed the exam.
I’m trying to stay calm and not stress…But it’s so hard. Because I know I’ve failed. I know I’m completely stuffed.
I’m in my senior years now. So every single mark counts. How the hell did I manage to mess up this bad!?
I think something is mentally wrong with me. Like I’m being serious. I think I have a learning disability. That would explain a lot of those marks…
When my older brother and sister graduated they got the highest scores that are possible. And there will be me…Ughhhh, I hate stress. I hate the pressure. I just hate feeling like I’m dumb. I just hate this big mess.
…And I just feel so disappointed in myself. I haven’t just let my parents down, but I have let myself down. And I don’t think I can fix it this time…
I think I need to go find my happy place.
(Blerh.This post sounds so whiny and horrible. But I only posted it because I made a ‘commitment’ to write blogs about how i’m going…So feel free to just ignore this xx aha)